Ty’s Tuesday Tumblr Tale
(Where I find a random photo on Tumblr and write a story behind it, all stories are fake, this one might be a bit true)
Most days feel like a rained out Wednesday. Even when it is steaming hot and my fan is on max. I work at least 40 hour weeks, four jobs and trying to make time for myself. Some might think I over work, but recently, there has been very little work being done, and its all because of these rained out wednesday days. Most days I have off, I don’t end up doing what I want, I get distracted, I can’t focus, I can’t stay involved in my work and this is becoming really bad. Procrastination has always been the worst of me, rolling weeks of not doing anything, rewriting the same list to do, only adding every week and not moving forward. Until the list is so full I feel over whelmed by things to do. Bring us to mostly wet rained out Wednesdays.
Music helps me some what, but I still mostly resort to Netflix when I either don’t get something, just gets bored or just doesn’t know where to start something and get into it. Recently I have been giving up on programming because I have a huge amount of doubt in my mind about getting a full job in the Fall, which is still a month and more away, but its creeping up and it is scaring me more and more every day.
I took a tumble when I came back from the big city, well not the big apple, but a city. Having my own place just felt like I had kinda stuff figured out, but I didn’t have a clue what my future would bring and I am still kinda worried. I have a lot still to do before the end of August and to be able to pull it all off, I need a plan. But when I make a plan it never pans out and I usually come back to “got to make a plan” pretty quickly.
The hardest part of this all is that I know where I want to be, I know how to get there, but I just don’t have the determination that I really need to accomplish it all. And to believe it or not, I really should.
Time to change the page, grab an umbrella, get into shelter and work, work as much as I can, grasping as much as I can.